Over the years, I have been many different people. Each person holds memories that together create the story of my life. I have moved from child to adult, from student to professional, and from being alone to being married with kids. Through it all, I have experienced the upbeat, perfectly happy, white picket fence, all is right with the world moments that everyone dreams about. But mostly this life has been chaos.
About 10 years ago, I discovered that I have somewhat of a strong personality. I KNOW! I was shocked! I always thought of myself as some sweet and innocent little lamb who does what was expected. I am sure that my parents and siblings would not have seen me in such a mystical light. As I finally came to this realization NOBODY around me seemed surprised. As a matter of fact, I was met with a lot of blank stares because people thought for sure I was aware of this fact.
This discovery was disturbing to me because I had spent all of my life trying to do what everyone expected me to do. I did anything I could not to bring any attention to myself because someone might see my imperfections (and there are a lot of them). I didn’t want to make waves because I had always been told that waves get you into trouble and being a trouble maker makes you unlovable. It was then I realized, for better or for worse, I am not the person I grew up thinking I had to be. Sometimes I am the person who creates the waves because I am a creator of change.
Like all bloggers, I am here to tell my story. The stories that make me who I am. The stories that connect me to others. The stories that are so un-freaking-believable that there is no way that could have happened. The happy stories, the sad stories, the I want to punch my kids in the face sometimes but don’t want to go to jail stories. But above all, I want to create a place where I can laugh among my chaos.
Just living my dream and keeping it real!